Wednesday 13 February 2019

Fear of losing loved ones

Parents who complete a cycle of there life, reaching the end of a tunnel, awaits a dreadful death which can knock them anytime.

For the last three days, my father developed difficulty in breathing. He woke up sweating calling out to my mother who was in the next room praying. He couldn't breathe and said, ' Sab ulte seeedhe saans aa rahe hai'. For the first time he agreed to go to the doctor. That was enough for my mother to understand that the situation is grim and needs urgent attention. Luckily, my brother had returned from Orissa for a year and was sleeping in the room across verandah.

My mother quickly knocked the door and he helped him out to ease out the pain. They waited till morning before they could take any action. There is a hospital specialised in cardiology next to our home, my mother took him there. However, there was no substancial revelation there.

Two more days passed when his condition remained unstable. Then, my big brother took him to a bigger hospital where he was nebulised and the CO2 level was decreased and the oxygen level was restored.

I realised the following things:

1. It's so important to live near your parents. One can at least go and see them whenever one wants.
2. All the recent, past incidents flash past your eyes connected with that loved one making you more vulnerable. There is no cure to it.
3. One question that often pricks you is could you have behaved any better with people whom you love?
4. Sharing love and happiness with people are the most important assets. It helps in leaving good memories behind. Or else regret be it any haunts you forever in life.
5. You flutter like a fish out of water when you live away from parents and the uncalled for news reaches you.
6. Leave trivial, fight bigger battles.

Hoping my father survives this and remains fit for the next 50 years....

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