blog hiatus

It has been over a few years that I stopped blogging. Lack of time has been the main reason for the hiatus. Of late, I have been inspired to befriend my pen again and pour down the perennial streams of words which formed my world once. A lot has changed over the last few years expanding my world and perspective in significant ways.

Today, I celebrate the fact that I took the road once forsaken. It actually feels good! It was like I deserted the familiar terrain and proceeded onto something mundane and purposeless. Writing is highly therapeutic. Its like a hobby once curtailed hard to give a miss. Void lurks inside reminding one about a disjointed affair. I will try to be more regular now. Though this is exactly what I said the last time!

Life has been tough but rewarding in the last few years. I practically managed to achieve all professional and personal goals with consistent efforts. However, one thing which has undergone tremendous change is my personality. The cruel working world tries its level best to kill the child inside you. The challenge is to let that child be forever alive within you. The transgression from that of college life to work gives a series of jolts which changes your outlook as a person. Nonetheless, one should forever be that naughty child who doesn't need a reason for a harmless smile in this reason stuck world.

I have promised myself to never let that old me lost again in this mad chase of dreams and rising aspirations. , My dear Readers, I will share more. As of now, let me tune in to this song which is creating a numbness in my senses.... Aaj Jane Ki Zid na Karo.....

Musings

It was the first day at new college. Not naming the college for privacy, however, all I can tell you is, that it was one of the most cool colleges of DU. Having studied in a co-ed school and then suddenly getting admission into all Girl's college was not that appealing for me. Not that I hated girls, but it was the beginning of something very unusual in my life.

For the next two years, all I got to see was girls, more girls, and some more girls. All around the campus -inside the Canteen, Nescafe, Lobby, Basketball Court, girls lying on the backyard area, some hanging on the trees, others busy with their love stories on the uppermost floor of the building...oh! God ...Can you imagine the same sight for the two best years of your life? Not that I was dying for boys company, but I had started realizing the unusual, creepy sort of feeling taking shape within my personality.

After the passage of one year, the change had set in. I had started enjoying the warm of the cocconed life. I had become more reserved and uncomfortable towards the opposite sex. It's not just me , most of my friends at college felt the same that studying in Girls' college has serious repercussions on the development of personality. Once the college gets over, we girls' college students aren't able to come to terms with the real world. It gets little odd for us to deal with the opposite sex. It is a very strange feeling. Those who have been into girls college would understand my point.

And the things which got affected the most was my temper. How to describe those wild- tantrums, tombyish attitude, carefree style, practically everything got just worse. On the other hand, I did learn a lot of women- centric qualities- like the importance of freedom, independent thinking and decisions, in the male- dominated society of ours. I feel, even in the 21st century nothing much has changed for women. They are still accepted by the males if they are submissive in their attitude. In this context, I have become much more stronger after having come to this lone world. But somewhere down the line, I do feel that things would have been better off , had I been to a co-ed college.